Tue Sep 11, 2018 11:39 am
Frank slumps back in self-defeat.
Something hadto be done, running away didn't work...and Brenna wouldn't let him distract himself...She was a nice person like that.
He has to put in visible effort not to jump up and run off.
"I- I a- was a janitor! A normal citizen! A follower of the great dust bunny, and not even a devout one!"
Frank starts fidgeting, getting restless. Stalling for time with his talking, keeping the memories of the mission away yet. Though he's stuttering...
"I got roped into so- some shady business! I admit I- I should be in prison! I-"
He tries to keep back a distressed gasp. Everything started going wrong all those years ago...
"I'm not made for this!" He cries out, clutching the ration, kneading it without noticing.
With a hopeless voice, he continues
"Th- The mission- It was them or us! We had to take it away! They fought for their colony! For their civilians! For the one thing they needed to survive in that place! I used tranquilizers. I wanted not to kill someone I could look into the face while I shot them! I couldn't! Even when the others killed around me, I didn't care! I wanted to run, to just stop! I thought about just running away a few times!"
The mediwater and the ration had fallen to the ground, forgotten.
"They were fighting desperately. We were fighting desperately...or at least those maniacs did. I was scared! I didn't want to die! They surrounde- they had those monsters! Brom was down and didn't answer anymore, everyone was wounded! It was there, it- i- I didn't want to die! I knew I was about to die!"
Re-living the memory, Frank slumps back even further before whispering.
He twitches once, what color remained in his face draining as he continues like before.
"I- I think I- snapped. Right then I- I wanted only to kill them. The monsters. The Hiltorel. I was beyond furious. I- I would've slaughtered my way through their families at that moment. I'm no- I wasn't like this! I feel like I'm going to die from fear! But I know there's this rage! I- I want to just stop! I- I can't-"
He stops with a choking sound, staring straight ahead with an empty look in his eyes.
If Buck appears and sits down
-stop cold talking, freezing up
-When he starts talking, bragging or complaining
--slowly turn around to him, giving him a wide-eyed look, slightly shaking
--As he continues to talk (maniacal blabbering for Frank...), lunge for Buck and punch him in the face with all power Frank has to offer.
--Yell at him. "Stop blabbering, you fool! What do you know of them! What do you know of this colony! This should've never happened this way! It should've never gone this far! We shou-!"
--Stop cold again, collapse and scramble away from him, trembling, trying to keep himself from lunging at buck again.
Apparently, sometimes stuff might happen.