And yet, something is different here...what could it be? Well, I will give you a hint: I've not changed substantially as a person, nor have I found some miracle drug to cure my anxiety
So the remaining possibility? Am I actually, for once
, confident that my work is exactly what is should be and is proceeding as fast as could be expected of me (or faster!?)
Yes. Yes I am
. I can't remember, the last time I felt like this. Maybe Januray 2013 or so
I wake up each day with a vision of an infinite, procedural universe in my head, I go to bed with it, I live, eat, and breath Limit Theory right now. I have to make a concerted mental effort to remember to eat two meals a day, I nearly loose control of my bladder each time I need to use the bathroom, because just one more minute with my work will be worth that pain
I've got a plan that's getting clearer every day, I've got a dream with which I'm falling back in love more and more each week, I've got an excitement that's setting me on fire more and more and more, and I've got a toolset that turns more and more miles into an inch each month. For once -- perhaps in the entire development process of LT -- I feel that I am living up to what you all expect of me. What a feeling. But more than that, it is the feeling that my dream is really, actually
coming to life with alarming speed, right here on my screen. And that yes, it can actually
be everything I wanted it to be.
Limit Theory is really happening, folks
:] You have trusted me this far. You have trusted me when I was less motivated, less capable, less responsible, less passionate, and less disciplined than what I am now. So now -- all you've got to do is hang on. Hang on, and I promise you won't be disappointed. This is it.